hold on though there was One Good Thing about working at american eagle and that was the Back where we kept all the clothes that weren’t on the floor and Listen to me,

how it was arranged was there were about fifteen shelving units, each about 25 or 30 feet tall. they went from the floor to the ceiling and they were on tracks so they could slide and to get to a shelf you needed you’d have to unlock and slide other shelves and it was like the harry potter staircases but metal and full of clothes.

so anyway obviously we had special ladders and Very Strict OSHA regulations about how we used these shelves so nobody would get crushed or run over or fall from 20 feet in the air

but that’s all fake and clothing stores in midwestern malls specifically are the 5th ring of retail hell

so we didn’t use ladders we just climbed the shelves like animals. which like, I loved, don’t get me wrong. I couldn’t wait for my manager to ask for some dresses I knew were on the top rack of the shelf in the very back row.

But the BEST part was when we were phasing out old stock so I needed to spend a long time hanging up clothes in the back on the shelves.

And obviously while I was doing that people would need to get into other shelves.

So they’d come into the back and say “hey molly anne! I need to move the shelves!” and I’d say okay and just pull my legs up and sit on my giant fucking metal base while i slid across the room on a 30 foot tall bookcase and got shut into a tomb of cotton dresses until they got what they needed.

the BEST way I can describe this is it’s as if we had cat trees built for human size and they moved

YEAH IT WAS FUCKED LMAO!!!!

you all need to think about how you interact with trans men online, like really think

recently one of my posts about being a trans man and casually interacting with another trans man got about 90,000 notes and the tags and comments are full of ‘too pure for this earth’, ‘i’m a dirty sinner i don’t deserve to read this post’, ‘adorable cute sweet precious boys’ despite the fact that it’s mentioned that i am in college and not a child in the post and you all need to think about how some trans men do not want to be referred to that way and being okay with being referred to that way is pretty much exclusively a young teenager tumblr thing that makes a lot of guys uncomfortable. i’m just a man. none of this is necessary and it’s very performative, but…

along with this infantilizing, with this obsession with the proposed purity of another man and myself just for existing, there’s also dehumanization that comes with it, for example:

somewhere along the post, someone decided it would be a good idea to add, ‘all i can imagine is two eldritch horrors trying to get their voices as horrifying and fucked up as possible’ (not exact quote but that’s the gist of it)…

and someone decided that it would be a good idea to take my experience, wildly change the context and make a FANFIC, on MY OWN POST, of two eldritch MONSTERS upset because their voices didn’t sound ‘as horrific’ as the ‘monsters’ around them, and bonding over it together. nowhere in this fanfiction was being trans mentioned.

this is, quite possibly, the most horrifying thing someone has added to one of my posts and going beyond dehumanizing my experiences as a trans man enjoying my voice getting deeper, but also writing a fanfiction onto the post that changed the context of ‘two trans men finding validation between one another and our voices’ into ‘two monsters are sad they’re not scary enough and bond over trying to be scary together’. i shouldn’t have to explain how horrible that is for me to read, and how horrible it is to see that added on my own post & circulated through hundreds with no criticism.

quite frankly, it’s devastating to see how people talk about and interact with trans men. we are either children who must be protected and are weak and vulnerable and ‘too pure’, or we are fuel for your fanfics that completely strip us of our humanity. i consent to neither and if you think that any of these things are okay to do to a complete stranger, all you’re doing is patting yourself on the back for your performative ally points while making trans men uncomfortable with sharing their experiences and talking about their lives and trying to be happy with themselves. stop it. 

As a lesbian… I bet you 5 million dollars that you don’t own a Smashmouth. But guess what? I own 7. cishets don’t reblog this

I am straight and I reblogged this just because I CAN. 

And I’m white and a dude, which means YOU WILL BE TRIGGERED MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i was driving and was in the left lane waiting for the light to turn green and i’m not exaggerating when i say the person behind me honked the second the light turned green…and i’m like….im not in the mood…….so i put my brake on and let them honk and honk until the light turned red again. it took like 5min for it to turn green and the person honked for 2min of it then stopped.   when it turned green again they were silent and i was like :) that’s what i thought. time isn’t real and i have no problem wasting someone else’s